7th Wedding Anniversary - Cupcakes

happy gila 3 hari straight cutii.. what's ur plan beb?

mine;
a) to complete 2 orders (another 2 orders been postpone due to org yg diraikan pi somewhere)
b) mengemas .. KOT?
c) pi wedding, tak bake pun lagi cuppies tu. huhu
d) tido tido tido.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. double yeay!


oh before pen off, mari menjamu mata dgn 7th anniversary cuppies ordered by dear friend, norzarina. happy 7th anniversary babe. tabahkan hati hadapi segala dugaan. i know u're strong enough *hugs*

love this shot!

i'm the only girl in the world

haih, i can't say NO to Rihanna!!!!!

La la la la
La la la la
La la la la

I want you to love me, like I'm a hot ride
Keep thinkin' of me, doin' what you like
So boy forget about the world cuz it's gon' be me and you tonight
I wanna make your beg for ya, then imma make you swallow your pride

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man, yeah
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only one...

[VERSE 2]
Want you to take it like a thief in the night
Hold me like a pillow, make me feel right
Baby I'll tell you all my secrets that I'm keepin', you can come inside
And when you enter, you ain't leavin', be my prisoner for the night, oh

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world


Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands, like I'm the only one who knows your heart, only one...


Take me for a ride, ride
Oh baby, take me high, high
Let me make you first, first
Oh make it last all night, night
Take me for a ride, ride
Oh baby, take me high, high
Let me make you first, first
Make it last all night


Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cuz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man
Only girl in the world...
Girl in the world...
Only girl in the world...
Girl in the world....

ps: syndrome nk jejak 31st.. hahahaha

monday blues

Tidak akan kamu berperasaan gundah walau sekali,jika kau tahu apa yang dicari.


Maka dalam kehidupan ini, apa sebenarnya yang kita cari?"

ps: kegilaan saya masa zaman U, sanggup beli buku ni (2 copies.. hehe) . pi jumpa tembakau kat angsana, amik signature dia (dgn roha kalau tak silap) & berangan nk jadi Kartini. kak kay, cool gila nama you!!!

i miss u

en blog!

will off to blogging world again once free time menghadirkan diri.. take care!

this is me

I've always been the kind of girl

That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is real, This is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me (this is me)
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me ..

someone ask me "apsal dh lama tak buh gambar dlm blog?"


em, i dont have 'that' feeling. maybe dh overload lemak kot? or mood dh lari.. but mlm tadi my other half show me this pictures. mcm biasa kalau beli new flash or new tools, wajibla aku or ff jadi model kan .so kali ni, dia baru beli stratos and tgh adjusting nk adapt dgn new skill. haha.


looking at this pictures, i realized something "ah.. i'm growing old". seriously, age doesn't lie except pi cucuk vit C or botox or yg seumpama dgnnnya tp nnti jadi fake la kot? haha .. seriously, mmg ada unsur2 garis2 or wrinkle yg mula timbul dimuka. am i panic? tension? gabra? surprisingly. NO! and i have a strong reason for that. teringat kata2 sorg teman.. 'i like matured lady, they're gorgeous, solid & have a strong career' . this statement enough to make me smile..


btw, wrinkle? maybe tido tak menentu. supplement pulak tak makan :P . wake up yulie!


ok abaikan pasal tua. semua org pun akan tua satu hari nnti. marila kite berusaha mengubah diri sendiri.. huhuhu..


did u notice caption "soulmate" tu? i personally think, ianya ikhlas dari hati seorang suami. actually aku terharu sgt.. i know, i'm not a good wife jauh skali menjadi wife mithali (masak pun sekali sekala kan.. haha). but, deep inside my heart i pray for happiness.membahagiakan org walaupun aku sendiri byk kekurangan..


To YOU, thanks for being my soulmate since oct 1999. we're born in different world (awak besi saya tanah.. falsafah hidup lain, timing pun byk lari) but we're made for each other.. pls, jgn bosan guide me to the real world. we're not born to be in same character but we have One Mission kan?


;)

misi mustahil (buat masa ni)

I NEEDED IT MOST!!!


ps: makcik odah, bile kite nk jumpa? tulang belulang saya dh lari allignment niiiiiii

my top list tv show (yg jarang dpt tgk)

aku jarang tgk tv sebenarnya sbb lagi suka tido ..but i do watch tv esp masa melipat kain. lipat kain ni kan taboo. so kene ada something yg boleh distract me dari memikirkan bila la kain ni nk abis lipat. you know me, i love daydreaming. bila tgk tv ni, terasa mcm explore dunia lain. tgk tv + tertido + mimpi = bgn tido puas hati :p

so, since ff minat tv sgt2 sometimes join gakla semangkuk esp dibo the gift dragon. why i love dibo? pasal ada annie. haha. annie ni best tau. terer baking & cooking. sometimes i got inspiration from her too. cuma berangan nk buat kek mcm skirt dia tu lom tercapai2. haih.

tp the best thing about dibo ni, dia tunjukkan method baking yg betul. adala satu series tu, cita pasal special talent. semua tunjuk la skill masing2 cuma annie ni tak tau apa dia terer. cari punye cari. last2 that fairy tu request orange muffin. i never know la yg si fairy ni hanya makan orange muffin. so, i watch sepenuh hati. annie bake orange muffin, sieve flour. masuk telur sebiji, sebiji.. weight butter. gile kan? tp best.. pandai org buat script tu sbb sometimes bile tgk recipe, selamaba je ckp campur semua. tu yg sometimes jadi sometimes tak. so the real method : kering dgn kering, basah dgn basah. u got me? insyaallah, confirm jadi!

kalau mood nk gossip, i watch E! , kalau berangan nk kurus.. pi tgk ANTM . berangan kaya, pi tgk kimora. bosan, nk site seeing i watch T&L.....

and baru2 ni glued to G&B show..

first impression? they're just like us...

my condition..

"stress" is my middle name. ye, org lain pun stress jugak. but sometimes i feel that i can't cope it anymore. hubby was fine kalau i nk back off. ikut hati mmg nk on je. tp aku masih tak berani. byk future planning yg memerlukan aku contribute esp sbb masa ni la nk build family. so, i still need fixed revenue every month.

before this, byk kali aku bgtau dia. i don't mind keje admin ke, keje belakang tabir ke but i have a big problems kalau kene keje luar + keje weekend. dhlah, weekdays keje dari pagi smpai 6-7pm .. abis weekend pun nk keje smpai petang ke? someone suggest me to bawak anak pi opis?? hey!! i'm not that crazyyy.. dhlah ofc env tak sesuai dgn budak, dgn clinical waste berdekatan, ko ingat aku nk anak aku terdedah kat bende2 camni???

i'm not complaining. ye aku tau, keje ni sumber rezeki. tapi kalau dh meeting smpai pukul 4-5 pagi. serious i can't stand it anymore. only god knows betapa penatnya drive ke kl dari pagi then tgh malam drove back. boleh je nk stay, tp aku mmg tak boleh nk tinggal anak.

i have bad experience last week, tertido masa drive. drive alone @12 midnite esp kat pedas (tak tau la lalu pedas ni rasa mcm khayal je.. rasa mcm lamaaanyaa jarak diaa..) luckily, tuhan masih syg kot. kalau tak sia2 je masuk front page. then, lg skali accidently tido jugak masa tunggu traffic light. but, i'm still in lucky mode. tiba rumah, bake pulak (boleh je bake esok, tp aku kan gile bake..huhu). haih, work too hard la last week ..


business? alhamdulillah.. dgn stress2 ni, i managed to complete all orders. few orders terpaksa ditolak dgn baik sbb my date mmg full until this few weeks. bukan apa, takut nnti dh janji2 then tak sempat, risau pulak. few customer dh faham smpai ada yg dh book date until dec! ya allah.. syukur sgt. cuma satu je, aku masih belum ada kekuatan a.k.a keberanian to turn this passion into fix business. kepala ni kene brainstorm lebih2 kot.. takut sgt :(

last but not least, did i tell you that i got phone call from someone yg baru makan my cupcakes for bigger business opportunity? actually, this is just a simple cupcakes cuma aku alter buttercream dia. add with cream cheese & liteyo mango-peach yogurt drink. hehe. bile stress kan, sukati2 je create new taste yg secocok dgn tekak aku..

cuma satu je lah, biar betul diorg ni. tak pernah terjangkau dek minda since i still new in baking world. Unfortunately, i can't proceed due to time constraint (he knows aku keje, cuma dia tak tau la aku kene keje weekend2 gak.. huk huk huk)

urghhhh, maybe next time.. who knows ;)

cupcakes yg berjaya membuatkan org offer bigger chances..

choc cupcakes with cheesy-buttercream (sukati je aku alter.. hehe)

busy like a bee

eii geram betul. nk update blog pun tak sempat. my schedule so far:

20,21/10 -kemas tak habis2, generate few task. ah, jam 12 mlm pun belum bisa tidurrrr!

22/10 - pegi keje seawal jam 730am . audit @hospital muar. balik dh dinihari. balik rumah, siapkan order cupcakes "princess theme". too bad nk capture gambar pun tak smpat!
23/10 - pi opis seawal jam 7am. gile! mcm nk pengsan bangun kol 5 pagi (i still need to cook, kemas, membasuh2.. etc etc etc). audit @hosp melaka. pengsan! malam, bake for another big event. mandi jam 12 tgh malam. ni bunian ke apa??? i know i know, tak healthy. tp nk buat mcm mana. masa sgt2 mencemburui saya
24/10 - trip to kl cancel due to domestic problem. but stillllllllllllllll.. kene stand by beribu2 data sebagai bahan bukti for urgent meeting. dok opis pun panas punggung telefon berdering2.
malam : cupcakes project. 4 boxes!
25/10 - cuti. yeay!!! bakal bergelumang dgn keje rumah + cupcakes order. nk enjoy ke nk masak??? hehe.. yg penting nk abiskan kemas la. nk mop segala. manis sgt dh lantai sy ni :p
26/10 - hubby pi class. nk rehat2 ke nk bermati-matian mengemas smbil menyiapkan diri ke rumah terbuka? nk tgk tvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv!!

masih di sini..

ishk semua org dh cuti ke?? aku? takde cutii pun. esok keje gak. jumaat - ahad je cuti tu pun nasib baik ada public holiday :p. isnin dh start keje. huhuhu....

so oleh sbb mood pun dh takde. pagi tadi (eh pagi ke? kol 10 baru smpai ofc :p), after bake sempat posing2 walaupun pimples yg dengki tu menimbun2 kat pipi. tp nasib baik jugaklah the Biggest Pimples tu terletak di bawah pipi sama tempat dgn lesung pipit yg tak berapa nmpk ni. so kene senyum camtu baru pimples tak obvious. gile complicated kan? hahaha..


btw, mmg hajat nk buat raya post. heeeeeeeee..


dikesempatan ini, tuan punye blog menyusun 10 jari memohon ampun & maaf sekiranya ada terkasar bahasa, terlebih perilaku, terover type & secara langsung or tak langsung menyinggung perasaan yang membaca. yelah, kdg2 pena pen eh jari jemari ni lagi laser dari mulut. hehe. so mana2 yg salah tu jgn simpan dlm hati ye. 0-0!

oh, lagi satu. nk ucap berbanyak2 terima kasih/ berjuta penghargaan pada pembaca2 setia either yg menonjol di ruang comment or silent reader sbb bykkk bg moral support yg kdg2 aku sendiri tak sangka. i start from zero & now rasa happy sbb ada improve sikit2 in terms of baking item. sayu tau bila ingat2 balik zaman dulu2 mcm apa je aku bake. tp korg setia bg semangat walaupun korg jauh dimata (malaysia, oversea..)

sbb readers2 + kawan2 la aku tetap berdiri & insyaallah bakal maju setapak in near future. kalau ada singgah2 melaka nnti, informla. kot2 boleh bersua muka di bulan yg mulia ni.. hehe


before pen off, meh layan blogger yg lama tak menggedik ni. hua hua hua. org dh nk raya baru terkial2 shopping, nasib baik size ada lagi :p

hari ni ariani dah cam pasar malam . so i grab 3 helai for raya matching la dgn public holiday yg 3 hari tu.. :P (jumaat, sabtu ahad)

note to myself: since pimples tumbuh menimbun, maka wajib amik gambar kat tempat yg lighting ok n senyum gaya ni. hahaha

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one of the 3 cakes baked freshly from oven. new design : strawberry + nuts. mlm ni another 3 cakes in waiting line. ^__^ (takyah tido la.. hehe)

kek2 lain, tunggu official photographer buat hard work. mlm tadi dia teman sy bake & susun stock brg smpai 2 pagi. sy ni bab susun2 mmg fail! then kami sahur megi bersama2. *jiwangggggg*

express shopping

• baju-bajuan for ff : t-shirt, gown-but-look-alike-t-shirt, leggings (hitam, putih, belang2) & panties (hehe.. raya pun kene tuakr nii)
• brooch for myself (bertahun2 tak tukar & most of the brooch dah takde batu-batuan)
• kuali non-stick. semangat ni nk masak hari2.. hua hua hua
• sudip-sudipan
  
• penyangkut sudip
• table mat. 8 kerusi so 8 table mat. table mat sape yg kotor then org tu kene self-responsible. huhuhuhu. motif tema : ala class gitu. murah je rm1.60 sebiji.. best2
• lip gloss, topup compact powder . malap je so nk shining2 sikit :p
  
• perfume : kaunter EL dh moved pulak ke Jusco baru. so pending

misi balik ni adalah gerak gempur mengemas rumahh & bake bake bake.
CHAYOK DIRI SENDIRI!!! (kene psiko ni asyikk mandommm jeee)

little updates

just washing baju kurung/melayu yg siap ditempah. adalah 20% mood raya menjelma.
my dear ff, get well soon ya. life is nothing kalau awak demam2 ni :(


ps: hari ni masuk keje jam 7.00am sbb nk balik jam 10.00am

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raya updates

fakta raya tahun ni:

• theme cream & grey : cotton. yg simple2 + berkurung pahang. no bling2. kebaya2 nadaaa.. pakai je kebaya last year. tp ntah, , mcm tak confident lak nk kebaya bagai. reason: toooootttt*
• ff : gown few. em, rotate yg tu je, kot2 feeling anak gadis sunti menjelma nnti. ada few pending tops kene beli incase dia betul2 taknk pakai 2 pasang baju kurung tu. so, ni kire PLAN B. sobbb, sobbb..
  
• shoes : dh beli masa c&k sale. simple je. tp mungkin kasut Bata ni jugak yg jadi pilihan. sedappp pakai. hehehehe
• ff : JJ mari. ff ni paling penting kene pakai kiddy sandal yg jenis wide open. bukan girly2 type. tp okla, asalkan dia selesa. penah cuba sarung crocs kat kaki, langsung taknk! huh.. sempoi abis kan?
  
• cookies raya : order 3 balang tart dari adik. yg lain2 tak start lagi. bile ntah nk start buat even brg2 mentah dh beli. kalau tak sempat, buat lepas raya la :p
• cakes, more to bake org punye. sendiri punye tak pk lagi. maybe bake on demand kot, sape dtg umah baru bake.. hehe. feeling skang adalah lebih risau orders before & after raya
  
• kek lapis - checked! baru dpt hari ni . nunnn jauh from kedah with love (ceh, pepandai tambah. haha). nk makan time buka. ehem ;)
• camelia, langsir - pakai je 3 tahun lepas punye .. tu pun tak abis gantung. hehe. pinggan mangkuk, pakai apa yg ada ^__^
  
• tudung : excellent! harga tudung lagi mahal dari harga baju. hahahaha.. yg penting new arrival punya. gold card dpt additional 10-15%. kan ke bestt tu????? so, mil, mak, yp..get ready yeah..
• angpow. tak tukar duit lagi.. ahaks
• seat kelisa : bila nk cucii nii..
  
• contact lense : ni lagi wajib dari cookies raya. tahun ni, theme : green youu! peacee..

sekadar gambar hiasan :P

he make me smile...

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"mula2 hubby beli kamera mahal, terdetik jugak kat hati aku ni. tapi dh duit dia, takde la aku larang. aku tau one day kamera tu mampu contribute something kat aku. now, i didn't feel regret at all sbb kamera tu la aku survive smpai skang. pictures worth a thousand words kan? thanks for your love & support!"

fresh design; extra special moist choc cookie cake

sunflowers & apple juice

ps: entry hari jumaat harus la over jiwang sikit. ahaksssss. **matila kene kutuk**

back to daily routine

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kene gegar sikit pasal dh ala2 lemau setelah seminggu bercanda.. huhu

ada byk cite menarik, sat g naaaa

city vacay experience: so far

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what can i say about myself? i'm a typical human being. takde cita-cita besar sgt, takde impian besar sgt, hidup sederhana tapi sudah mula menghargai apa yang ada.


serious, since i bake.. i think i've slowly lost something. no, don't blame my obsession. blame me! sy jadi kekurangan masa. masa utk family, masa utk anak. smpaikan anak mula rapat dgn suami. ye, sometimes we need to sacrifice something to get something in return. fenomena ini sgt menakutkan!


maka, pelawaan suami utk bercuti mula2 sy smbut dingin. risau dgn orders, risau dgn keje opis. tapi tuhan tu maha mengetahui, rupanya ada something valuable yg dirancangkan utk saya. ye, bukan percutian ke luar negeri, bukan percutian berpakej lumayan. hanya percutian biasa yg mampu mendekatkan kembali hubungan dgn anak, hubungan dengan suami.. alhamdulillah, sesungguhnya sy bersyukur dgn apa yg saya alami ini...


sesungguhnya, ia sesuatu yg tidak ternilai bila melihat anak semakin petah berkata2. dh besar rupanya anak sy ni :) & kami mmpu menjadi sahabat baik. anak sy yg sentiasa kiss sy walau dimana sahaja. anak yg mendengar kata. betul, mula2 sy cuak nk ke sana ke sini berdua saja lantaran hubby sibuk dgn urusan kerja. tp alhamdulillah, anak behave well (oh, tapi tetap sy tak boleh leka..)


oh, sy juga dpt jumpa few friends yg selama ini hanya berbual di alam cyber. besttnya, berjumpa berborak tentang kehidupan & menghargai apa yg ada. oh, paling best kawan yg berkongsi minat yg sama berborak pasal kek smbil masing-masing mengutarakan pendapat yg berbeza.


alhamdulillah, walaupun masih bercuti tp tuhan bukakan pintu rezeki smpingan. berupaya mendapat few confirm orders utk minggu2 mendatang. paling best, idea dtg mencurah2 dan insyaallah sy akan janjikan design baru utk customer2 baru sy. tunggu ye :).


dan boss jugak bg khabar gembira, big task tapi sy tetap gembira...


satu je pesanan sy utk sahabat2 diluar sana bersyukurla dgn kehidupan kita sbb dgn bersyukur baru kita dpt kemanisannya walaupun kite hidup hanya secara bersederhana.


okla, nk bersiap. kejap lagi adik sy nk ajak makan2 di luar. katanya tempat yg boleh nmpk satu kl. ntah kat mana ;)

bukan you sorg tau takde baju raya...

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ditujukan khas buat c*m, si famous blogger ;)


saya pun takde baju raya lagi. ntah sempat ntah tidak nk tempah. kalau tak sempat saya beli kat jusco je. cotton dia best2 gak. hehe. then size Sbrand puteri tu mmg sebiji size saya. mcm tau2 je dia ukur badan saya.hehe. tapi harap2 sempatlah. ingatkan tahun ni planning nk matching2 cotton dgn best friend, si ff!


oh, tapi dh masuk 6 hari dok MV ni tergatal nk cari kasut raya pulak.... wedges kot sbb sy suka pakai wedges. selamat & stylish (konon2)..


ff, sat lagi teman mama pi c&k ye. tgh sale gila2 tu... :p

satu-satunya kasut sy skang. sy beli kasut sekali sekala je.. hehe

ff in 'BOB HAIR CUT'. sy tiru dia jugak :p. tp rambut ff lagi cun la dari mama. haha

luahan hati

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DIA ABG SAYA

kami dibesarkan dlm rumah serba sederhana + penuh kasih sayang oleh ayah dan mak. ye mak garang, tp garang bertempat.

abg saya dh terbiasa hidup berdikari. kecik2 dh pandai jual mee siput PEDAS mak buat. dia tak kenal erti malu. tau tak hasil jualan mee siput pedas + ais krim malaysia, kami dpt pi jalan2 (walau hanya kat air terjun gunung ledang, bukit cerakah, taman buaya melaka). kami jugak boleh sewa kereta pi muar shopping baju raya. waktu tu tak kenal pun patung barbie walau saya teringin sgt. abg saya yang berdua tu buat lawak panggil sy 'wei, aku nmpk Bab* yang ko suka tu'. best betul feeling tu even tak beli, dpt pegang je. duit mee siput pedas tu jugak membolehkan kami tgk TV berwarna. Brand National lak tu. hampir 25 tahun Tv tu bernyawa. baru2 ni je dh kong abiss.

abg saya byk kelebihan. dia jugak juara berzanzi kat sekolah agama. kire dialah yg harumkan nama sekolah. sy ingat lagi, cikgu sekolah agama panggil dia 'kecik'. ye dia kecik je tapi hati dia BESAR!

sy selalu kagum dengan abg saya. paling kagum, dia la satu-satunya anak kg yg berjaya masuk ke asrama penuh. jauh, Pahang! masa mula-mula dia nk mendaftar, saya la org paling sedih. bukan sedih apa sedih sbb tak dpt ikut. kete dh penuh. ingat lagi, lepas mandi saya diam2 masuk bilik menangis. abg sy pujuk 'ko jgnla nangis, aku bukan pegi nk suka2. nnti aku balikla'..

ah, sy benci kenangan tu. kenangan tu buat sy tgh menangis skang ni. dh lama sy tak nangis tau! abg saya selalu banggakan hati mak ayah. dia antara pelajar terbaik kat sana. dia pandai cari duit, jarangla dia telefon nk mintak duit. dgr cite, dia jual maggi kat sana. jual kad raya. ntah apa lagi agaknya dia jual.

paling sedih masa dia first year, asrama dia kebakaran. ya allah, nasib baik waktu tu diorg semua ke surau. kalau tak silap jam 5 pagi. baju takde, buku abis hangus. dia balik kg, mak peluk dia erat2. 'nasib baik ko tak apa2 nak'... dan kami sekeluarga nangis lagi

abg sy ni sentimental jugak. suka bg surat siap dgn kata-kata semangat. dlm diam saya kagum dgn dia. nk tau, dia penah duduk semeja dgn menteri pelajaran time tu sbb menang anugerah penulis terbaik. dpt duit rm500 kot?. sukanya kami time tu. dia mmg pandai cari duit

abg saya caring orgnya. waktu abg no 2 frust dgn spm yg tak seberapa (padahal ok jugak), dia la yg sibuk isikan borang permohonan masuk uitm kursus persediaan ke australia. ye, dia la yg sibuk sana sini. akhirnya, abg no 2 dpt pi oversea.

abg saya masuk utm. kos mechanical engineering. kalau cuti semester dia mesti wat keje part time. keje kilang la, keje kat supermarket la. dpt gaji dia bawak kitorg jalan2. bukan dekat tau. sbb dia lah kami merasa tido hotel. walaupun hotel cikai. dia bawak kami smpai teluk cempedak, bawak ke menara KL pastu p terengganu. besttnya time tu. masa saya form 5, abg saya bawak kami adik beradik jalan2 ke air papan, mersing. sy kira ni hadiah lepas spm sy. kdg2 kami risau jugak, ada ke dia duit. dia sure ckp 'jgn risau la, aku dh simpan duit nk jalan2 ni'. kami tak pk lain. hanya tau nk menikmati percutian yg tak seberapa bg org lain tapi sgt berharga pada kami.


bila saya masuk utm, sy jadi agak rapat dgn dia. nk tau dia lah yg teman saya shopping keperluan kat utm. waktu tu parents sy tgh ada problem so diorg tak sempat nk monitor apa yg sy beli. abg sy la yg konon2 jadi PA time tu. pi shopping, pastu bgtau 'kat U nnti ko kene dressing camni camtu'. haha. lawak betul! pastu abis shopping dia bawak sy g tengok wayang. gaduh tu mmgla ada, biasalah adik beradik tapi masa first year dia la byk hantar saya sana sini. kalau lapar dia belikan makanan. once sy dh couple, baru dia slow sikit. dia tak kisah, tp dia scan jugak boyfriend saya. alhamdulillah dia takde masalah & takdelah nk sibuk2 interfere. cuma pesan dia satu je, belajar jgn leka..


smpai la kami 2-2 dh menginjak era 30-an. byk bende dia dah lalui. sy tau dia tak perfect, tapi sy nmpk dia mmg struggle utk life. mcm2 dia buat utk puaskan hati semua org. PJJ, retrench & segala bende. ketabahan dia buat sy sedih sgt. bykknyaaa cabaran ko! masa dia sibuk cari keje sana sini, sy yg tak keruan. cuba letak diri kita dlm kasut dia, komitmen byk tiba-tiba keje takde.


alhamdulillah, kejap je dia dpt keje baru. sy tak risau pasal dia byk skill. living skill yg smpai kompeni create one new post utk dia. alhamdulillah, leganya rasa.


skang ni sekali lagi, dia dlm fasa PALING MENCABAR dlm hidup dia. sy tak dpt nk tolong dia, siapalah saya. cuma sy harap dia boleh buat keputusan yg tepat! saya tau dia super pressure walaupun tak nmpk kat muka. dia salah ke dia betul ke, hanya dia yg kenal siapa diri dia yg sebenar.


saya doakan keputusan yg dia bakal buat nnti sesuatu yg tepat walaupun mungkin byk dugaan besar nnti yg menunggu. beb, u're not alone. u know, where u can find me..

Tuhan Tak Duga Kalau Dia Tau Kita Tak Mampu Nk Pikul.

GOOD LUCK & MY PRAYERS ARE ALWAYS WITH YOU

stucked

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• masih stuck dlm meeting (current time : 7.57pm)
• diskusi smbil makan mcd & cuppies.. yum! (ah mmg melambak2 la lemak pasni)
• tadi sempat bake for tomorrow's order. tak pk lagi decorations. mintak2 masuk mmpi
• hubby dh sms mlm ni kene start packing. seminggu away!
• ntah bila nk balik ni... adoyaiiiii!
  

When I Look At You

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Besides rihanna voice, i love MCirus too. nk kata merdu cam MCarey taklah but they have unique, beautiful tones & strong voice. Kalau dgr tak mengantuk & automatically kite jadi bersemangat. PENTING tu..


Mengaku, i love inspired song rather than song yg meleweh2. lain la nk tido kan. If drive alone mmg berdegangla kereta dek lagu2 berkumandang. if dj berborak, terus i tukar channel. Kalau nasyid (kene sebut gak ni), lagi suka rabbani. sedihkan ustaz asri dh takde (alfatihah). suara dia mmg memukau kalbu! naik bulu roma...


Ok, another song yg baru discover (apa bende tertinggal kete apii daaa).. lepas dgr, terus bersemangat waja pi office & siap dh flow yg berjela2 ni. haha. nmpkk tu, betapa besarnya pengaruh lagu dlm kehidupan..

Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a soul.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's are long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.

And when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.

When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.

Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.

You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colors,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful!

Yeah

When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you, Yeah, Woah.

You, appear just like a dream to me.

beautiful right????