mixture of feelings

the only thing that make me feel better is when i did something simple but meaningful to my doter

AND when i able to make my husband smile

AND when i start cooking

DID I IN THE INITIAL STAGE OF DENIAL??? I'VE NO IDEA!

go away you Negative AURA!.. i've have lot of things to do , MALAS NK PK (esok seharian training, lusa kene g KL!!)